I Want Something

Lately there’s been something swimming around in my brain. Something I’ve heard about before but kind of forgot about, or didn’t pay much attention to. But I keep hearing it, and I’m starting to think it makes a lot of sense. It has to do with the power of want. Wanting something is the first step towards getting it. And if you keep focusing your mind on getting it, usually you will. That’s the theory, anyway. It’s something about energy, and changing the energy around us — weird invisible spooky energy stuff we don’t think much about. But we should, because it can change our lives.

Well, I want something really badly. It took me way too long to realize just how badly I want it, but I know now, and that’s the first step to getting it. So for the sake of getting what I want, I’m going to announce it. On the internet. I feel really silly, but I’m doing it, and if you all could take a second to think about me doing this thing I want — just one second, or longer if you want to — I would be forever grateful.

I want to be an actor. On TV. On a brilliant comedy show, like The Office or Arrested Development. I watch those shows over and over, and I know I was made to be on a show like that. So, I’m asking you to please just take a moment to picture me walking on the set of one of those shows, if you’re familiar with them. Picture me walking in, in character, taking off my jacket, and talking to one of the other characters, preferably saying something hilarious. If you don’t know those particular shows, just picture me on your favorite one, or even just showing up on your TV screen, waving and laughing and saying, “I DID IT! I’M ON TV!”

I think some people look at acting as a selfish job, because it’s so fun. I kind of used to think so, too. But now I realize it’s exactly the opposite. We all have a responsibility to do what we enjoy most, because only then can we be happy and whole, and until we’re whole, we can’t share parts of ourselves with others. Or something like that. I just want to get up every day and feel excited about going to work. I want to laugh a lot, every day, and be a part of creating something I’m proud of. I want to feel like I’m part of something that makes other people laugh, something people can relate to.

This is something I want, and I’m admitting it. I might fail. It might never happen. But I’m not going to pretend I don’t want it, because I do. I know I’m good enough, and I know it’s possible. And now I’ve got at least a second of your focused, positive energy in my corner, and I won’t be surprised if something happens sooner than we think, thanks to you.

In conclusion, since this post has been all about me, if you want something, leave a comment or email me, and I’ll picture you doing it, or getting it — as long as it has nothing to do with killing puppies.

4 Responses to I Want Something

  1. Rachel says:

    I cannot tell you how many times I have pictured you on The Office, while watching it! Oh! I want SO BADLY for you to make your dream come true! Is there anyone that we can call? (I don’t know if you’re aware, but I have ENORMOUS pull in the “biz”. In fact, I call up people like Jerry Bruckheimer, and his 15 assistants know to put my call through immediately, lest they face eternal damnation to daytime gameshow production. But that’s just a little snippet of how totally awesome I am.) You would have to make a promise to the internet, however. You must promise that you would keep your blog, so that we can all keep up with your hip hollywood lifestyle. Positive thoughts your way–all the way from the BAY!

  2. Eric says:

    Wait a minute. You want to be an actor? So are you telling me there’s a chance you were acting when you told me you thought I was totally cool?

    Lame. Totally lame.

  3. Annie says:

    I got your back sister! I was sending out the positive thoughts for you. Which reminds me, since you are in this zen mindset, have you seen “What the Bleep do We Know?” yet? You must if you haven’t. As a person who wants something similar I’m with you! I think watching Missy on the tube makes it all the more probable.

  4. wan says:

    as someone who has seen you act, i say that you, who are lucky enough to be really good at something, are destined for great things. i want to be a writer. can’t you tell by the ridiculous sentence i constructed at the beginning of this comment?

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